Empty

Ok, I carry through each day. I go home on time. I eat just enough. Not quite busy in the office. Got friends I laugh with and do crazy things anytime we want. I attend church and SFC activity. I am an active person I could say. But not quite. I still feel something empty inside.

I know I have to do something. It's already in my mind. The idea is there. I know how to change. I know where to start. I know what to do. But why am I stuck on the same shit? Hay...

I need to refresh my faith I know. I need to clean up my access to Him. But I got too complacent that forgiveness always comes into my way everytime I fall. That's really bad. And I'm so bad now. I feel bad. And someone should never do the same mistake.

Now I feel like everything easily gets wrong. Words I don't like to hear from people keeps passing by my ear. Today I feel like everybody bullies me. I get sensitive. When I get sensitive, I avoid people I need to avoid. Especially when nothing is established yet, I can easily push them away from me. That is me. And I feel bad.

I must do something. It's not bringing me any good things anymore.

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