Quick and Sharp

After finishing my read of Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen, I was so excited to go to the bookshop and get another one to read. I was choosing between The Lucky Ones of Nich Sparks and Middlesex of Jeffrey Eugenides and finally decided to get the latter. Both are interesting though except for the price so I will just ask my friends to get me Spark's for Christmas.

Anyways, my story ain't about that. As I was paying it, with much conviction I told the staff that I am a bookshop member and if they honor it for the item. He asked me to present my card and I did it with delight. I was halfway pulling it from my wallet when he saw something that made him to react with humility, "I'm sorry Sir this is not Times, it's MPH."

"Oh I'm so sorry. I had a long day. Blame it on my work but I'm deeply sorry", I said.

I was apologetic and to my embarassment, I strode myself away from the cashier and went across back to our coffee table in Gloria Jeans, to where we ate non-Gloria Jeans food.

Another book to read, another story to kid.

Movies

RockNRolla
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amusingly and creative clever.

Nights at Rodanthe
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very Nicholas Sparks.

Tropic Thunder
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there must be a second installment.

Max Payne
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like chewing gum while eating lunch.

Ironic

1. Drained but active.
2. Hungry but full.
3. Patient but anxious.
4. Positive but negative.
5. Friendly but snobbish.
6. Mature but childish.
7. Bully but sensitive.
8. Excited but worried.
9. Broke but splurgy
10. Seeking advice but unwilling to listen.
11. Seeking to be understood but not to understand.
12. Ending the suffer but extending the life.
    
13. Prayerful but sinful.

and the list goes on...life is an irony.

Sunday Like Never a Weekend

11:00pm (Sat) - 2:00am
Midnight chat with Kuya Edwin, Meg, and Jo at home, talking some highs and lows and moymoypalaboy.

2:00am - 11:00 am
Sleep

2:00pm - 3:30pm
At Holy Trinity Church for my sharing about CLP Talk 7: Christian Family with Cleo as the speaker. I was surprised to see a a sister participant who was a childhood neighbor.

4:00pm - 6:00pm
With Louie, Jess, and Janice at Plaza Singapura to shop for Louie's prenup attire, to which I end up buying a cardigan for myself.

6:00pm - 7:00pm
Mass at Good Shepherd Church.

8:00pm - 11:30pm
Dinner at Jess' place with Lenie, Lou, Louie, Janice, and Reggie. We had baked crab and prawn in garlic and butter. We had so much fun bullying each other and crushing other friends through our silly speculation-but-soon-to-find-out stories.

Then I did the one round of laundry before going to bed so I can save time tomorrow (but lose time for sleep).

Brands

from Don ulit.

1.) What's the brand of your shoes?
- everbest, aldo, new balance, and some unknown italian brand

2.) brand of your watch?
- guess, fcuk, fossil

3.) cellphone?
- motorolla something

4.) computer?
- apple

5.) bags?
- armani (free from perfume hehe), fitness first hehe

6.) underwear?
- bench, CK (pero 2 pcs lang hehe)

7.) fLipfLops?
- havaianas

8.) waLLet?
- Girbaud

9.) What's the name of your perfume?
- Boss

10.) What's the brand of your shirts?
- Zara, brandless shirts from Bangkok hehe

11.) What's the brand of your car?
- none

12.) What's the brand of your shampoo and conditioner?
- Clear Man

13.) What's the brand of your body soap?
- Dove

14.) What's the brand of your sunglasses?
- none

15.) What's the brand of your jeans?
- Folded and Hung, Bench

16.) What's the brand of your Laundry soap?
- Top, Dynamo

17.) What's the brand of your Lotion?
- Bodyshop, Bath and Body Works!

18.) What's the brand of your toothpaste?
- Colgate

19.) What's the brand of your ballpen?
- none

20.) What's the brand of your towel?
- Aussino

21.) What's the brand of your milk?
- some Singapore brand

22.) What's the brand of your jacket?
- Bench

23.) What's the brand of your tv?
- none

24.) What's the brand of your dvd?
- none

25.) What's the brand of your cam?
- wala...but if i were to buy one, it'd be Nikon

26.) What's the brand of your jeweLry?
- none

27.) What's the brand of your
eyeglasses?
- none

28.) What's the brand of your sock?
- Darlington yata. basta may -ton sa dulo.

29.) What's the brand of your favorite toy?
- none

My Ten Names

Filler...got this from Don.

1.Real Name:
Delfin Acirit Juan III

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:
(first four letters of your name, plus
zzie)
Delfizzie

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME:
(fav color and fav animal)
Blue Penguin

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:
(middle name, and current street)
Acirit Punggol hehehe

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:
(the first 3 letters of your last
name, first 2 letters of your first
name, first 3 letters of mom's name)
JuaDeCar (cute!)

6. SUPERHERO NAME:
(2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
Black Water Chestnut

7. IRAQI NAME:
(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd
letter of your last name, any letter
of your middle name, 2nd letter of
your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of
your dads middle name, 1st letter of a
siblings first name, last letter of
your moms middle name)
Eaiuda (nonsense!)

8. MONUMENT NAME:
(fathers or mothers middle name)
Luna

9. GOTH NAME:
(3rd favorite color, and the name of
one your pets)
White Mojacko

10. SCREEN NAME:
(any of your tv's brand and your mom's
middle name)
Samsung Rivera (pangboldstar!)

Watching this movie feels like...

1. Hancock
   ...watching popeye cartoon.
   
   
2. Wanted
   ...eating donut with cheese and garlic toppings (get this in JCO)
   
   
3. The Dark Knight
   ...reading Catcher In The Rye.
   
   
4. The X-Files: I Want To Believe
   ...sipping a boiling tea at the beach while basking in the sun.
   
   
5. The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor
   ...having dessert for appetizer
   

Agitating

It's been days of myself suffering from throat problem. I always blame it on the weather, especially here in Singapore, where I find it unpredictable. But I think I'll have to pin it on my age as well. I'm not getting any younger! (just like everyone else!). Ergo, taking care of health should be on top of my list. It should have been, a long time ago. I hope I can weather it.

I visited the doctor a couple of days ago, and as usual, it's like going to a pharmacy. I gathered my thoughts to c-l-e-a-r-l-y explain to him my health condition but he didn't give me even a single concrete diagnosis. Nothing! Now the medicines he prescribed leave me an agitating and draining feeling everytime I take it. As agitating and draining as him! But do I have a choice? No. Or maybe yes. I don't know. I have visited several clinics here and they are all the same bland banana.

When I had another TMJ attack last time, I went to this hospital, just on the OPD. I was explaining to them how I got that attack and trying to describe the pain and they ended up injecting me a high-dosage pain killer right in my butt! My lower body got paralyzed that time for almost an hour. What pissed me off that time was that they were asking me questions as if they were psychologists helping me to arrive to my own solution on how to combat pain. That was really absurd. Well, injection was the least thing I could thing of. Crazy.

I hope I can put myself back to normal. Work and other activities are coming up soon, and all I want to do up to now is sleep, eat, and take a vacation. Or maybe, something else.

Keen Observation

I have been hanging out in National Library a couple of days now. I just found solace on that place. May not be as good as wading waters by the shore, but somehow it gives me calmness. I always take myself to my favorite spot, where I can overlook Milennia Towers erected besides Suntec. Behind it I can see a quarter pie of Singapore Flyer which always awe me everytime I stare at it. I know it's been opened for over a month now, but given such distance from where I was sitting, I couldn't detect if it's really moving. I heard it takes 30 minutes for a revolution. But a few seconds of me gazing doesn't suffice if it rotates. I don't expect it to move fast though. Well, it kind of move somehow but I know it's just the work of the eyes and mind that when you stare at an object for few seconds you feel like it's moving, like an angular wall that seems to cave in when you stare attentively at it.

It was my first time after a long time to go home before sunset. I didn't see the mighty sun though but at least there were no touch of darkness yet. After 8 months of staying at the northeastern part of Singapore, I observed that there are more people now getting off on the last train station, enough to say that Punggol community is starting to grow in time. It will not surprise me if in the next few years or so, we will have a sports hub or a mall or a golden Merlion statue anywhere on this area. Or even more, a man-made desert, a man-made mountain, anything extravagantly man-made. Singapore is good at it.

Elated

I think I used this title before. Anyways, some good things are comin' up to make me so excited, anxious, and restless. I can't wait.

May 16-19 - Genting/KL trip
June - wakeboarding, SFC Discovery Weekend
July - Bangkok trip, CLP graduation (west)
August - Cambodia trip

And I have this dream concert to watch!

Journey with Arnel Pineda (or at least with his Zoo band)
Alicia Keys
John Legend

hmmm...dreaming dreaming...

Dreams

I was very tired when I reached home last night. My friend and I attended Body Pump in FF. Then we moseyed around Chinatown to find a place for dinner and we ended up at this Chinese hawker along New Bridge Road. The food was really a throat torture. We ordered for Sambal Stingray and Seafood with Brocolli. After which we had ice cream at McDo.

This is the weirdest part. I slept a quarter before midnight and it happened again, my waking up middle of the night as if I have not slept at all. It was quarter to 4 and my dreams were kind of odd. I feel like someone's trying to bend me around and hold me tight as if examining me. At first I thought it was real because I can actually feel the touch, and I was, I think half awake. Well let me just credit just to dream because I wouldn't be able to explain it when it's real. Sometimes it's really hard to distinguish dream to reality.

After that, moments before I was finally awaken, another dream occurred me. I lost my lower tooth and again, I felt like it was so real. Supertitiously, I know what it means but ever since a renewed my faith, supertitions are out of my list; so no more biting of trees or woods for that matter.

I was very hungry when I woke up. I went straight to the kitchen and grab donuts. I was trying to figure out what could have caused this weirdness (as if I can) and little do I know that I have already eaten 2 donuts. I even thought of Dreams by Gabrielle. haha weird.

Then I went back to my room and grab something to read and there goes Veronika Decides To Die. I had that book a year ago but never actually read it. I realized I am more into reading books with male as a lead character, or at least couple (like The Time Traveler's Wife). In fact I just forced myself to finish The Almost Moon (Alice Sebold). Anyways, after reading few chapters of Veronika, I thought of my friends who attempted suicide. I thought of two, with the latest one being of much concern to me.

When my housemate finally got up (Reggie, and that was around 5am), I shared this weird moment with him while having our breakfast (again). Then I took a nap on his bed while he's preparing for work and geez, another set of weird dreams appeared, so weird I can't share it.

For A Change

What a great weekend I had! Well, not really that great because I missed mass.

Anyways, Reggie and I went to Sentosa with Allen kasi it was Allen's first time to go there yesterday. So ayun, we went there medyo late na but we managed to do Skyride and Luge then tambay by the beach until Songs of the Sea. Tapos we had dinner at Food Republic. Medyo kapagod especially for me and Allen kasi two consecutive nights kaming puyat, Fri and Sat, as in we slept 5am and 4am dahil sa walang sawang kwentuhan at takutan namin haha.

Then today, it was my first time to go to gym in the morning. I was very hesitant at first kasi I don't find it comfortable. But I pushed it since I won't be available on the next few days until Thursday, maybe. And I thought it was much better than going there after office. In fact everything was ok until I realized I left my belt! Kaya I bought pa a new belt kasi annoying tong suot kong pants today. Good thing I'm not wearing long sleeves so no need for me to tuck my polo in. I was really pulling my pants up while walking. This was originally Reggie's pants kaya eto mga 2-inch bigger yata sa kin hehehe.

Lately I had a number of deep moments contemplating on life and struggles. And it was relieveing to know na in one way or another God is giving me answers from different packages. Some of it I didn't discover myself. Some people lead me to see those answers. Tapos medyo mas open din ako lately about my emotions.

Sometimes, especially when we don't trust the person fully, we still have some reservations to open up ourselves, all out. Or minsan kahit well-trusted na natin ang isang tao, we still hold back some thoughts. But I've learned something today which I strongly agree. That we are not responsible for our feelings therefore, no feeling can cause us shame. I am quoting this from the book I'm reading now.

God has been so good. We seek for answers, He'll give it to us some times unpredictably.

Cravings

I had my little craving this lunch. I phoned Mike so we can have lunch together at Raffles Place where he is heading to meet Dianne, his wife. So we had lunch together at this restaurant named 5 Loaves 2 Fish and I thought it was owned by a r. catholic. I ordered beef set which is composed of stir fried bean sprouts, egg, and meat. I did not get satisfied though because I am a heavy eater. I usually eat 2 cups of rice per meal and though my girl friends envy me for not gaining weight despite my eating habit (thank you!), I hate it on the other hand.

He never convinced me to eat again but Mike offered his company in case I wanted to hop to eat some more (if I know! hehe). We decided to take sweets this time and everytime I think about that, Ben and Jerry's always pops into my mind. But there was a slight problem. I don't have any cash. And so is Mike. Fortunately they accept credit card for minimum purchase of S$20 up. Since I'm all set up to eating B&J, I didn't think twice.

I ordered 6 cups of B&J so I can reach the credit card requirements. We had 2 scoops of Strawberry Cheesecake (my all-time favorite!), 1 Chunky Monkey, 1 Choco Chip Cookie Dough, 1 Phish Food, and 1 Sweet Cream and Cookie. It was topped with caramel, whipped cream, those colorful sprinkles, and slices of banana.

It was a bit funny when the crew asked me if my friend and I can eat all of it. I told her a straight 'Yes' and 'Watch and you'll be surprised'. And we were not surprised. We managed to eat all of it, including some bites of the cone base. Thanks to the warm water the crew gave me. I think she wanted me to suffer from tonsillitis.

Loeb

So weird. I had gone to bed half passed midnight after reading the first chapter of "The Interpretation of Murder" by Jed Rubenfeld. It is my usual dose when I can hardly put myself to sleep at night, which happens to me most of the time now. But what makes it weird is that I woke up sometime 5am, and feel so restless. And instead of summoning the spirit of sleep I started to reckon my recent past, active present, and short-goaled future.

I also recalled the whats and whos few hours before I sleep. The last person I talked to was my housemate Mike, who just came back from Pinas with his wife. I missed them. The last person I spoke over the phone was Allen Aberdough, who murderously eat our leche flan last weekend. This man is so easy to befriend with, and I enjoy his company. The last person I sms was Ryan Gonzales, who is as crazy and witty as I am, that we spend 1 hour working out, and the rest laughing. The last person kissed goodnight was Jess, who came by our place to fit her gown for Mike's wedding. Geez she was curvaceous despite her extra large size. She reminded me of Mau Marcelo during the Asian Idol. Of course my friend is way to pretty and sexy. The last person I chatted online with was Naida, which made me think now if she was the main reason I got this nightmare after asking me seriously if she is pretty. I thought she was. But she is prettier now.

Weird. Really weird. And when I checked on my phone last night before going to bed, I noticed this weird numbers on my message folder. 77 Inbox, 77 Outbox, 7 Drafts. Creepy.

Of course, there is no mystery. It's only numbers and it's insignificant. But it gave me a thought.

I must have been watching Patayin Sa Sindak Si Barbara too much. Good morning Lord!

Adrenaline

Adrenaline. A hormone released by our body in reaction to stress. It prepares the body for 'flight or fight'. (www.diabetes.com).

It may sound opinionated but I think the more adrenal glands we released the more stressed we can become. Well I don't know and I don't want to know because all I care for now is that I feel high and this hormone keeps me going and going til it's gone.

It's tested. When my adrenaline is up, I can do more things, I can accomplish more tasks. I feel like calling people I need to call, run to errands as much as I could for a day, send important emails to as many people. At the end of the day as it dries up, I feel lifeless. Stress becomes more fatal. Good thing I have the gym to help me recuperate.

Today I feel like I have so many things. I went to my friend's office and had lunch right there on her office desk. We did some catching ups then we discussed some matters for our dance performances for CFC Dinner and Dance this Feb. When I reached back office, I did research on electronic commerce because I need to develop courseware by the end of this month. Then on the side I sms all SFC dancers for our first rehearsal this Saturday. On the top of on-the-sides I keep calling my friends who are planning to go to gym and refer them to my friend. Then I am mentally arranging my plans when I go back to Pinas on March for one week. There is Anilao, Batangas 2-day dive plan with Jess, Lenie, and Jon; there is Bora or Palawan or Isla Verde plan hay...it's stressful and thrilling at the same time because I am looking forward to all of these.

There is more but like I said, adrenaline keeps me going, and jumping from one state to another. I just hope to finish at least something when it stops pumping.

Looking Forward

I should have entitled this as "Looking For Words" instead because I so am wordless, blogless these days. I have been out the past couple of months but at least I am somehow back now for new year's sake.

What made me excited to write this is that even before 2007 ended, I already have some prescheduled activities, my sort of to-do lists for this year. Well, it is not really a resolution; I have ceased myself doing that after havnig an established idea that resolutions for my case are nothing but an anticipation of my bleak future. Or maybe, just maybe, I was not being realistic. Hmm...at least now I am!

True enough, my present is so pregnant of the future! Someone said this. So here are my merged lists of priorities, plans, pre-scheduled activities, etc for this year.

TRIP SCHEDULES

Q1
March - Pinas vacation and Mike's wedding

Q2
April 18-20 - Vietnam with friends
May - Boracay (?) no plan B yet

Q3
July - UK (?) if time permits

Q4
Oct - Bhutan

PRIORITIES
1. Health
2. Relationship
3. Career

ALL-YEAR PLANS
1. Makalipat sa bagong work!
2. Gain weight and I am working on it!
3. Invest on fixed assets
4. Buy laptop

I think this is all for now. It is really hard to think kapag gutom tapos nagchachat pa while doing this blog. I'll just update this next time. Bye blog.