Booster, Anyone?

I don't know why I feel this "thing" today, but I am just not as comfortable. I am irritated.

One greatest thing I've learned from my previous "home" was to become aggressive. At times it works, you know. You feel the need of doing more. You see yourself growing more. Challenge, more than pushing us down, is what makes us tougher. Yes at times you need a break though but nevertheless, I believe that life is also about facing adversities, and winning it. And that's what I need now. I don't only need a rough road to take, but also a fuel to keep me going. You see, idleness and motivation are two different things.

Just this afternoon, I had the chance to share my thoughts with Rohani while having snack at Long John's Silver. I told her that I really hate mediocrity. I do hate it. How can I settle for something good if I know I can do something better? But sometimes it leaves me no choice. And that's another thing. I want to do more but people around me, well, not so around me, can settle for something less. But I couldn't blame them either for living their life within this border of mediocrity. I want to implement new things but I don't have the voice (yet) to scream it. And even if I have, I don't think they have ears to hear it. God knows how I want the best for my new home. And since they can settle for less, I can do things for them even faster. That's what they want. They care more about quantity than quality. In the end, it gives me more time for idleness.

And here is the saddest thing. This could be my opportunity to discover new things. But what do I do? None. Zero. Nothing. Can someone get me a glass of booster please?

This could be my time to read more books, to study new things. But I don't see any actions to myself. Well, I just realized that I learn things faster and better when I am hands on to it. Oh how I hate to read techy books. It must be hands on. Like learning Adobe InDesign recently.

On the lighter side, I get the chance to do some valuable "things". I almost spent my entire day exchanging emails with my friends, planning about surprise birthdays and all. I get the chance to chat with a few. I get the chance to write this entry. But talking about work, it's a total boredom.

I need a booster. Anyone?

Oh well, can't wait for Saturday.